THE APPEARANCE OF THE SPECIAL SOMEONE

I juz know her not long ago..juz abt a wk..i know very well tat i already fell in love wif her le..but i asked myself again & again tat was i sure?? Have I reali forgotten Meiling??juz about a yr le..ya..i know if Meiling one day breaks up wif her BF i confirm will be confused again de...tat's y i am not tryin to woo the gal called C....firstly C got a BF & i am a person wif a prison record..i am also not gd enough for her..but her relationship is on the rocks & her every actions makes mi fall even deeper in love wif her..if there's anyone who can really change mi..it's C ba...She is just so natural n beautiful..she is also faithful in love,just naive a bit.haha...but i am reali afraid of being rejected flatly or the pain of losing my loved one again if she does end up wif mi..i reali cannot tolerate the pain ain't no more..i juz feel myself falling deeper into tis HOLE..things are juz happening too damn fast man....i juz dun wanna be a burden to her lah..wat if she dun even give mi a chance???but at least i tried & i was the first guy to buy flowers for her..at least i have this honour...i know it's stupid but i just being crazy lah...haha...being in love always makes someone crazy lah...

just writing my own feelings

I nv treated my ex gal the way i should had n i reali regret it..almost 4yrs of love...but i started to neglect her,chose to be a 'Hero',fight & fight non-stop,clubbing & work.It's not that i want it too but i was really working hard to support myself & give a better life..i was only loving & faithful towards her...ya..i was not a gd guy at all but at least i tried my best to love her with my heart..but u know time change pple change her heart also change...she went off with another guy when i was inside the prison..told mi that she already informed be4 hand tat she may not be waiting for mi...EXCUSES !!! She got together with him in june but sent mi the one & only letter in august asking for a breakup!!!wat the???my heart really hurts...i dun even know wat to do then but tears juz kept flowing down.....I have nv nv LOVE someone so much & so seriously & she treats mi tis way...ask mi to grant her her happiness...isn't her happiness in her own hands?? Isn't she already together wif tat BASTARD ???wat happiness can i grant more???LAME SHIT...IS THERE REALLY TRUE LOVE???

Sad Day....

haiz...i just got dumped in a almost 4yrs relationship...did not really know how to pick myself up again...haiz...it was really a difficult process for me..i really gave my all...n i really didn't know wat to do.....till i met HER.........she's so so natural & beautiful in her own way..she enchants people unknowingly,i am lost n i feel like being in puppy love again...she's got a BF but their relationship are on the rocks..i am not trying to k advantage of the situation but i juz know i need her badly to stabilise myself...i am struggling to fit back normally into the society again..tis gal makes mi feel so brave & courageous again...but wat should i do to win her fragile heart??? I reali wan her to know tat i will be a wonderful BF to her,definitely a better BF than her present one...but i am afraid of REJECTION !!! Above is the gal who dumped mi for another IDiot !!! She Sucks Right ? U destroyed my life...